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I was watching The Passion of The Christ today. Seems like every time I watch it, I relate to a different character. This time I felt a connection to Pilate. There was a line from the scene where Pilate is questioning Jesus and he asks "Can you explain this madness to me?" That line struck a nerve in me. Who better to ask for help in understanding this madness? Apparently the motivation of Pilate's question wasn't from the heart, so Jesus left him in the dark. I wonder at times if my motives are what they should be. Why do I do the "good" things I do? Is it for the pat on the back from all who see? Scary. There is so much scripture that addresses this. God knows what's driving me. I must stay at the foot of the cross. A very close friend shared this verse with me. It can be either comforting or discomforting, depends on my motivation.

9 “As for you, Solomon my son, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a whole heart and a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands the intention of every thought. If you seek Him, He will be found by you, but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
1 Chron 28:9