Insomnia

Tired but can't sleep. Something is bothering me and I think I've got a good idea what it is. Now, what to do about it is a whole different story. Lucky you for tuning in to the saga. Earlier this evening, (last night- whatever) I got an email update from a friend who's son lives in Quito, Ecuador. He is working with a ministry there for teenage boys who are mostly from the streets. I briefly saw him while there this summer and although I don't know him that well, I felt that strange bond you get sometimes. Looking at the pictures and reading about what has been happening there only seemed to pour salt all over this wounded frail spirit of mine. Then there is the guy who has been there over twenty years and planted numerous churches and takes trips into the jungle and hosts pastors at his camp (and I could go on & on...) all to further the gospel. I mean, what am I doing? There are people all over this world laying it ALL on the line and I'm just here building bigger barns. Getting fat and lazy (spiritually & physically). I can't stand it. I know what you're going to say. Now Kevin, you have opportunities right where you are. You have a family to minister to. God has you right where He wants you. Then why does this bother me so badly? I'm not kidding myself. I wouldn't have the slightest idea what to do or where to turn. I won't even share my faith in everyday settings. What makes me think I would do it on foreign soil? Something's got to give. BTW, pray for those guys (and their families).

Steve & Carol Thompson
Casey & Renae Bryans (Luke, Jordan & Molly)