Lost

I'm terribly inconsistent. I don't want to be. I wish I could journal everyday and draw profound buckets of wisdom out of the shallow well of my being, but... it just doesn't happen. I've been doing a little (stress little) reading in the book of John. Seems like every 4 or 5 months, I find myself drawn to it. Though this time, I have been intrigued at the response of different people to the words & works of Jesus. Some of those accounts shake me to the core. Nicodemus, the woman at the well, the woman caught in adultery, the blind man who was healed... not only those, but the religious elite. Man they became enraged anytime Jesus came around. John 9:34 is messing with me at the moment. Pharisees to the man who was blind but now could see:"You were born a total sinner. Are you trying to teach us?" And they threw him out of the synagogue. Not sure why that feels heavy, but something is weird there. Still searching.